Dec 13, 2006
@10:54 PM
2 more days to go.
Hang on.
Holidays! For 3 weeks.
I want to spend this holidays with my best friends.
Do a little bit of catching up.
I miss Cek zu, Radi, Fai, Siti, Farhanah and Syikin.
Especially Syikin, I didn't meet her for quite sometime.
And I do hope that Cek Zu don't think I'm ditching her cos I got a boyfriend now.
I don't cast away my friends. PERIOD.
For now, I'm REALLY busy.
I still have mol. bio test to get over with.
And I just finished my LSP phase test today.
Excuses.........???......??
Here's my list of importance:
(1) Family
(2) Studies
(3) Friends
(4) Boyfriend
Wan understands this.
My friends before him.
So it just hurts me whenever my friends think I have a guy now, I want to be with him all the time.
Oh, please la....................
I'm not clingy.
We're not a CLINGY couple.
Its never my choice not to hang out with my best mates.
Its our school's schedule that prevent us the luxury of spending time with each other.
Weekends is only 2 days.
Its saddening to think that all of us seems to fall apart.
Maybe I'm exaggerating la.
But I feel that way.
I don't know what's going on in your life.
You don't know what's going on in mine.
And I don't want to keep depending on my boyfriend for a source of comfort.
He doesn't mind me sharing.
But its not me to load my burden to someone else.
I need you guys.
Boyfriends are there for us.
But friends are ALWAYS there, way before they came along.
And comforted you after they left.
So........
Forgive me for going MIA.
Forgive me if i ever hurt anyone of you in any way.
Forgive me for not being there when you needed someone the most.
Forgive me for whatever wrongdoings i have done to any of you.
Forgive me if i ever made any of you inferior.
I just want my bestfriends.
~lydia~
P.S in advance to Farah...Have a safe trip to KL. Hope you enjoy your holiday there. Friends back here going to miss ya....cheerios!